196th - Current life.

Its the 15th day of the month, yr 09, 196th post.

I realized that I havent been living my life like a normal human being for the past few mths,

like the Ee Von who socialises a lot & a lively girl, I would say...

Okays, if u wanna continue reading this, be prepared for gettin confused & irritated, aights.

Don't say I dint warn u beforehand! :)

#1: Few mths back, I've changed in the sense that, I'm trying my best not to be a burden to anyone, esp my family.

So, I've been obeying my parents way lot better than before,
not exceeding curfews, driving bac to Mlc for most of the weekends in the past May & June 09, because I've learnt the meaning of "Life's short" & I'd certainly like to be by their side/somewhere close to em to learn that they are in the best of health & each time I'm away frm Mlc, I'd miss my parents a lot, i don't know why, but it feels like I just cant stay far away from em for a long time.

*chuckles* WEIRD hearing this from me uh? I know, I felt it too.

#2: Decided to continue my studies here in MDIS, Singapore,

due to personal reasons & hate the 100% assignments thang by UniSA.

I signed up last Sat & paid an amount of S$ 327.50 (RM 792.55) just for the processing fee.

With that huge amount just for the application processing fee itself is more than enuff for me to not be fickle-minded anymore. I've prolly wasted RM 11, 698 for the 1st sem of UniSA.

Thus, I've wasted more than enuff on my studies,

there'll not be anymore change of uni or stuff like that. So, yeah!

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

- Walter Winchell

#3: For my dear FRIENDS!

- I'm truly sorry that I havent been spending time with yall like I used to.

- I can't deny the fact that, I've been very unfriendly with the texts & phone calls from yall, but, I supposed I shud let u know about this.

** I felt rather suffocated & lonely (perhaps) ever since I started UniSA degree. Many things have happened, gained some & lost some on the way too. Well, that's life all about right? I've lost a friend whom I once treated her like my closest friend, some1 who I'd turn to during my stay in Subang for the past 1yr++.

However, I realized that I've been too nice to her and allowed her to take advantage of me at times which I don't even realise at all before this, because, I was too naive? We've done studies, assignments, late nights & clubbing together.

AND, just because of the thing called, "MONEY", everything perished in a split of second. There goes our friendship forever...

- Ever since then, I've totally lost my respect towards her & realised how much I meant to her as a good friend of hers. Such a huge disappointment, L.

Credits to u, I've learnt a very important lesson that's to be a very selfish person
to shield myself from being hurt by people like you, who isnt genuine and honest,

not a bit at all.
A lifetime lesson which costs me RM150!!!

" True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation."

- George Washington

#4: I'm trying my best to open up & spending time with my friends like I used to.
So, dearests, pls give me a break and a period of time to recharge myself. LOL!
Nothing has changed in terms of friendship,
everything remains the same/even better than before.

I still love u guys a lot & thanks for being so accommodating with my attitude all these while.

"My friends are my estate." - Emily Dickinson

#5: I'll be back in Malacca for August. So, lets hope I'm all geared up to party wild with yall.

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." - Mother Teresa

"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." - Martin Luther King Jr.

xx