Guilt; invisible heartaches

170th post

Guilt is strangling me so badly each time,
when my parents are givin me cash :/

Ohh, knowing its their hard-earned $$$,
but, i still don't change my ways of spending... :(
which is quite overrated for myself.
how do i go bout that? :O

Parents are getting older,
Mummy isnt that strong & healthy as ever before,
she's hvin backache now.
That really aches my heart a lot a lot,
seeing her each time,
havin foot pain & backaches. ahh~ :((

I really wish i cud do smtg for her,
but, why are my excuses the blockage instead?
aihhh~ whad a loud sigh!

Nights!