Thoughts ...

It feels so empty inside.

It seems that the external is portraying its cheerfulness,
but,
who will actually notice the amount of sorrowness
that is drowning internally ? :O

Damn it all ~
Life's treating me so unfair in certain aspects of my life.
Such as friendship 'n' relationship ? -.-

The feeling of liking/crushin on sum1
who's actually not interested in u
can be really disturbing at times.
emotionally wise ...

BUT,
if he/she is showing signals that he/she is interested in u,
later on, when u respond to the signals,
he/she might stop signal-ing...
Thats an act of selfishness ? =

U actually make someone feels that
u'r interested in him/her,
then, when u've succeeded,
u'll start to ignore he/she eventually.
Thats really stoopid, aint it ??

Why will u actually bother to make someone fall for you
when u don't even have feelings for him/her ?

It may be fun for u to do so,
but,
why hurt the innocent hearts ?

Why let the innocent hearts bleed
for the sake of ur own selfish attitude ?
for the sake of ur own pleasure ?
Give a thought bout it.

I've been thru this for like 2-3 times
'n'
i knoe exactly
how it feels like to be involved in sucha situation.

It comes one after another
'n'
yess, im certainly ignorant enuf to allow it happen again ...
and again ...

Call me a fool !
Percep me as a pathetic girl ...

But,
Love is a beautiful gift from GOD.

And,
i'm pretty sure that,
each 'n' everyone of u wants to feel the
feeling of being loved ...
be it by ur parents, friends or special "someone" =D
because it makes us feels that we're not alone in this world.

I really love my friends now
'n'
its really like tearing me apart
if i were to further my studies outta here
in the near future. :(

I'm still thinking about it,
but my future lies on the decision.

Whads holding me back here ?
Family ? Friends ?
GOD, send me a hint!

I've gotta make a wise decision,
but, i'm confused now.