Actually, m kinda lazy to blog! (well, its obvious aint it? duh~~)
but anyhoo,
since i aint gt shits to do now 'n' m like daym friggin BORED (about.to.death) ...
So, lets hear bout ma love life...
oh wait, do i even have one ??
well,
prolly yall thinks that im attached, rytes ??
HELL NO, im single ! (doooom...)
believe it or not ~
Looks can be deceiving at times,
so do feelings in relationships !
Love at first sight ? - i've nvr experienced tat b4 (sadly~)
I've been in love for twice in my life
Love cn do wonders mayn, seriously!
but when its over,
it hurts like fuckin shit mayn !!!
damn fuckin pissed off with tat~
managed to overcome the 1st one
but nw m in da overcomin process for the 2nd one ...
Its daym easy to crush on someone,
then, feelings start measurin its depth,
then, u'r in love (HAPPY!HAPPY!HAPPY!) ...
BUT its nt easy to totally forget bout it when its GAME OVER!
esp if u'r the one whos being dumped~
sucha saddist... (tsk.tsk.tsk)
Cried like an i.d.i.o.t for several times ...
Thank GOD,
i've mel wimme,
accompany+advise me ~
She was like,
"C'mon evon, its over lar, dnt brood bout it, let it go-der r many betta options out der."
(i.think-was.busy.sobbin.cudnt.rmb.whad.she.told.me)
but my heart is still bleedin at this very sec...
recalling back the past ~ flashin back at each sec we spent together !
those were the days ...
Eventho,
we were ony together for like a short period of time,
but,
i still misses u so badly now 'n' those days where we used to call 'n' sms 'n' watched mvs in da cinema together ...
*sniffs*
but i certainly don't hate you for calling it off,
because,
i believe that,
u'r nt that kinda dude that just date 'n' dump any girl at anytime ...
and i also realised frm the very beginning that,
u'r still clinging onto ur prev relationship,
even when we were together as a couple,
but,
i still said YES to you ...
Knowing that the pathway for this relationship is gna b a lil hard,
because,
u've not fully overcome ur prev one ...
I thought we can slowly overcome that together as time goes by,
but,
it seemed to have proved to me that,
its totally IMPOSSIBLE!
I was,
of course,
very dissapointed 'n' badly hurt (internally),
because,
u were the one who built up+tore down this relationship !
he's sucha daym effin' jerk to yall, rytes?
but sadly,
he isnt a jerk to me AT ALL...
I can't hate him,
because,
i fell too far,
was in way too deep 'n' m still lovin him at this very sec...
Its nt easy to completely erase a feeling that have grown deeply~
Time isnt really a factor in a relationship,
because,
u don't need a reason to love,
but,
to love unconditionally ...
I've dissapointed him for 3times,
so,
i guess im nt a good GF material after all ~
I can't deny that i'm sucha outgoing freak,
that hangs out with both genders equally ...
Its a no wonder that he got jealous so easily+dissapointed wimme,
because,
i was out a few times with my other girl+guy frens when i was with him.
In other words,
i brought it upon myself ! (how.dumb.cn.i.be?)
When we were on the phone that nite,
he told me that he couldnt take it any longer,
my tears started rollin down so much ...
I've never liked to hear that frm him,
because,
i knew that,
it means the END of our relationship!
We can only be bestfriends,
but,
not more than that ...
It hurt me soo much when he said that,
my mind were in a total blank,
i couldnt thought of anything at that very crucial moment.
tears started rolling down my cheeks ...
I totally cudnt let go,
because,
i was so in love with him (and, m still very in love with him).
I tried askin him a number of times,
if he really meant it or not ...
I was too dread to get a +ve reply frm him,
because,
i knew there's nth i could say/do,
besides,
agreeing with it...
but,
in the end,
he replied me,
"Sorry, but i really can't go on anymore!"
I told myself to hang on strong 'n' respon calmly till the conversation ends.
I did it~
After hung up,
i started cryin so so so badly!!!
I needed someone to talk to,
but,
everyone was asleep ady...
It was @ 2.50a.m. !
That was my worst nite,
i ony managed to sleep @ 4smtg in the morning !
but,
i couldnt even sleep well,
i was awake pretty early,
cudnt get back to sleep ...
Its still hurting me so badly now ~
hope that it will end soon,
because,
i can't cry every single day...
My parents will notice smtg isnt right wimme.
Evon,
stay strong 'n' look on the bright side ~!!!
(tellin.myself.that!) ;'(
I just wanna let him knoe that :-
i'm missin u so badly now!
i really do love you! (but, i wasnt committed enuf, SORRY!)
i'm really sorry to have dissapoint u for a number of times!
i really miss those days,
holdin ur hands, be in ur arms 'n' pampered by YOU!!!
Thanks for everything, dear!
(esp.the.priceless.sweet.memories.we.shared.together)
I'm glad that we were once in a relationship b4,
being loved by you,
was the best thing that cud have possibly happen to me!
-xoxo-
but anyhoo,
since i aint gt shits to do now 'n' m like daym friggin BORED (about.to.death) ...
So, lets hear bout ma love life...
oh wait, do i even have one ??
well,
prolly yall thinks that im attached, rytes ??
HELL NO, im single ! (doooom...)
believe it or not ~
Looks can be deceiving at times,
so do feelings in relationships !
Love at first sight ? - i've nvr experienced tat b4 (sadly~)
I've been in love for twice in my life
Love cn do wonders mayn, seriously!
but when its over,
it hurts like fuckin shit mayn !!!
damn fuckin pissed off with tat~
managed to overcome the 1st one
but nw m in da overcomin process for the 2nd one ...
Its daym easy to crush on someone,
then, feelings start measurin its depth,
then, u'r in love (HAPPY!HAPPY!HAPPY!) ...
BUT its nt easy to totally forget bout it when its GAME OVER!
esp if u'r the one whos being dumped~
sucha saddist... (tsk.tsk.tsk)
Cried like an i.d.i.o.t for several times ...
Thank GOD,
i've mel wimme,
accompany+advise me ~
She was like,
"C'mon evon, its over lar, dnt brood bout it, let it go-der r many betta options out der."
(i.think-was.busy.sobbin.cudnt.rmb.whad.she.told.me)
but my heart is still bleedin at this very sec...
recalling back the past ~ flashin back at each sec we spent together !
those were the days ...
Eventho,
we were ony together for like a short period of time,
but,
i still misses u so badly now 'n' those days where we used to call 'n' sms 'n' watched mvs in da cinema together ...
*sniffs*
but i certainly don't hate you for calling it off,
because,
i believe that,
u'r nt that kinda dude that just date 'n' dump any girl at anytime ...
and i also realised frm the very beginning that,
u'r still clinging onto ur prev relationship,
even when we were together as a couple,
but,
i still said YES to you ...
Knowing that the pathway for this relationship is gna b a lil hard,
because,
u've not fully overcome ur prev one ...
I thought we can slowly overcome that together as time goes by,
but,
it seemed to have proved to me that,
its totally IMPOSSIBLE!
I was,
of course,
very dissapointed 'n' badly hurt (internally),
because,
u were the one who built up+tore down this relationship !
he's sucha daym effin' jerk to yall, rytes?
but sadly,
he isnt a jerk to me AT ALL...
I can't hate him,
because,
i fell too far,
was in way too deep 'n' m still lovin him at this very sec...
Its nt easy to completely erase a feeling that have grown deeply~
Time isnt really a factor in a relationship,
because,
u don't need a reason to love,
but,
to love unconditionally ...
I've dissapointed him for 3times,
so,
i guess im nt a good GF material after all ~
I can't deny that i'm sucha outgoing freak,
that hangs out with both genders equally ...
Its a no wonder that he got jealous so easily+dissapointed wimme,
because,
i was out a few times with my other girl+guy frens when i was with him.
In other words,
i brought it upon myself ! (how.dumb.cn.i.be?)
When we were on the phone that nite,
he told me that he couldnt take it any longer,
my tears started rollin down so much ...
I've never liked to hear that frm him,
because,
i knew that,
it means the END of our relationship!
We can only be bestfriends,
but,
not more than that ...
It hurt me soo much when he said that,
my mind were in a total blank,
i couldnt thought of anything at that very crucial moment.
tears started rolling down my cheeks ...
I totally cudnt let go,
because,
i was so in love with him (and, m still very in love with him).
I tried askin him a number of times,
if he really meant it or not ...
I was too dread to get a +ve reply frm him,
because,
i knew there's nth i could say/do,
besides,
agreeing with it...
but,
in the end,
he replied me,
"Sorry, but i really can't go on anymore!"
I told myself to hang on strong 'n' respon calmly till the conversation ends.
I did it~
After hung up,
i started cryin so so so badly!!!
I needed someone to talk to,
but,
everyone was asleep ady...
It was @ 2.50a.m. !
That was my worst nite,
i ony managed to sleep @ 4smtg in the morning !
but,
i couldnt even sleep well,
i was awake pretty early,
cudnt get back to sleep ...
Its still hurting me so badly now ~
hope that it will end soon,
because,
i can't cry every single day...
My parents will notice smtg isnt right wimme.
Evon,
stay strong 'n' look on the bright side ~!!!
(tellin.myself.that!) ;'(
I just wanna let him knoe that :-
i'm missin u so badly now!
i really do love you! (but, i wasnt committed enuf, SORRY!)
i'm really sorry to have dissapoint u for a number of times!
i really miss those days,
holdin ur hands, be in ur arms 'n' pampered by YOU!!!
Thanks for everything, dear!
(esp.the.priceless.sweet.memories.we.shared.together)
I'm glad that we were once in a relationship b4,
being loved by you,
was the best thing that cud have possibly happen to me!
-xoxo-
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